Seems like I'm just going to be posting once a month.  *sheesh*  School is purty much kicking my tail.  I accidently missed a quiz for my on-line portion of my master's program...effectively blew off 15 points of my grade.  Dangit.  Brilliant, eh?  Sometimes, I just don't know what I'm gonna do with myself. 

I'm now in my "medicine" rotation...I think all of the rotations are medical, but maybe I'm just silly.    I'm in the ICU at a local medical center that is also a trauma center.  So, I have patients who have been involved in some horrific accidents - car accidents, motorcycle accidents, shootings, jumpings, botched suicide attempts.  Not to mention the strokes, heart surgery, terminal cancers...  It is pretty tough to see soo much suffering, and most of that is in the families. 

I've decided that my children will never ride a motorcycle, ever.  Even if you do wear a helmet, there are soo many things that can go wrong.  Scares the crap outta me that they will also one day drive a car.  I know that I can't keep them in a bubble, but I hope that I will be able to instill in them the proper ideals. 

As a Christian, it's also very difficult to understand whether a person should be allowed to die when there is no hope for recovery, or should the family really and truly have us do everything in our power to keep them alive - and when I say alive, I mean on a ventilator, with feeding tubes, and IVs, and tubes from other areas of the body to allow for waste collection.  That person is never going to recover...but how do I know that God won't choose that person for a miracle?  Is it right for that family to foster false hopes, or are they even false?  Argh, this really is tough, you know?

Alright, I've been enough of a downer.  I'm going to go read some of y'all to cheer me up!  Y'all stay cool, y'hear?